~* #hanginout *~

Sooo~

I have nothing else to do right now.

Well... I do, but I don't want to do any of that.

I'm embracing a running streak of not being sick (ahem, SCORE).

I want to bake (as in, Cornbread, pizza, etc., lol),

but I really don't feel like cleaning up.

That's all I've done today. The salt was a bitch...

And to top it off, I had JUST cleaned everything up before it spilled everywhere.

Lame, lame, lame... Lame.

It's only upside down on twitter. Ha.

In other news, while I hang out in the parking lot, I finally got Instagram. Speaking of #hanginout, I got to 'Hang Out' with Kosha (and co.) a few days ago during the filming of his latest epic video.

Long story short: Dude is Kr@zie... (lol)

What do missiles, yogurt, hammers and boyshorts all have in common? The first scene shot.

Yeah~ I won't go into too much detail, just be ready for anything.

~* Peekaboo! *~

I know, I know...
It's been ages since I've been around.

But! Guess where I'm at? *giggles*

The funniest thing happened yesterday,

I was behind the grocery store and these two girls showed up walking towards me from around the corner across the parking lot. Suddenly, one stopped in her tracks and ran full force towards me with one hand waving madly in the air. I thought for a moment, 'Do I know this chick??' As it turns out, she thought I was Rihanna. Weird, right? And making it all the more unbelievable, I was leaving the grocery store the day before, as I headed to the vehicle, a group of guys passed by me in the parking lot. I didn't think anything of it until I heard one call out, "Rihanna!" I stopped entirely and began to look around, like, "Shit! Where! :D" That was when I noticed: They were looking at me. WTF???

Twice in one week??

Never in my wildest dreams could I have thought up some stuff like what's been going on for the past... Year (plus some, hahaha). I'm just taking it "day by day" as I always say, and somehow I always seem to accidentally make magic out of it all. Whodathunkit?

Anyhow, just thought I'd drop a note.

I'm not dead (yet, lol), I'm just...

On the road. ♥
And of course that means I had to cook up a storm of goodies before I left.
More on all of the adventures later though. Patience, young grasshopper!
TTYS!

~* Embracing *~

Heading out again...

To the country,

 Where we can relax and watch things grow.

 

And maybe hit the beach at some point....

Eyes wide open.

 

Hahaha, of course.

Oh! And thanks for 4,000+ page views, by the way. 

~* S.A.F.E.I.N.E. *~

Written August 22nd, 2012

By Rashida Darby

In natures eyes I see and feel everything...

See And Feel Everything In Natures Eyes.

Like a mother, I can create anything,

And all that I create is always mine.

Don't mind being tied up, always in knowing.

Knowing that I could break free at any time.

Don't mind being free, 'cause i know you will keep me;

Keep me always and forever in mind.

So here I stay, safely.

Safely whilst I safeine.

Whilst I safeine and I'm whole.

 I might leave here maybe,

Wherever I'm taken I'll go...

And when I get there, we'll know.

When I get there, we'll know.

I've said goodbye not recalling anything,

Just anxious as hell to get home.

Some weeks will go by and they'll start insulting,

Wondering why it is I haven't called.

I planted some seeds just to watch them growing,

Though I'll move before harvest this year.

I kiss them goodbye, always in knowing, but

Without a taste of the food that they bare.

So here I stay, safely.

Safely whilst I safeine.

Whilst I safeine and I'm whole.

 I might leave here maybe,

Wherever I'm taken I'll go...

And when I get there, we'll know.

When I get there, we'll know.

~* 15 Words *~

The other day, while I was browsing the Humans of New York website, I came across an entry detailing various other people who had been asked to describe themselves in 15 words or less.

At first, it sounded entirely too hard to describe myself in such few words, but  think I got the point across after a moment of thought:

 
"Artistic and hyperactive young woman erratically searching for a way to constantly excrete art."

Sounds like a news headline (lol).
I wonder now, if I should change the word 'art' to 'creations'... Hrm... *ponders*

Can you describe yourself in 15 words or less? (-:;

~* Quietly Hurrying... *~

An Excerpt from: "Quietly Hurrying"
Written Aug. 29th, 2012

'About to re-up on my mission,
Show a little more ambition.
Since I'm not on my death bed anymore,
I think I probably might could listen
To a lecture and some stories,
And not think it all so boring.
Hell I could even say that I might even
Learn something worth knowing.
Maybe show something worth showing.
Maybe light a bomb worth blowing,
just to go and show the universe
their own beauties are glowing,
hoping, growing, still unknowing.
Still reaching for the sun each morning.
Still aiming at the moon each night,
still hearing black birds crowing.
One day I'll fly away with them,
as the sun rises that faithful morning...
Until then I've become paper thin.
Like the lanterns - Fires burning.
Quietly hurrying...'

~* Music, Dreams, Music, and Making Stuff *~

Music:
Aside from all the Drake, Sia, & Rihanna I've been drowning myself with, I've also had Nicki Minaj and Beyonce's new albums filling my ears. It's been like being whipped in to shape by Rihanna, while Beyonce teaches and lectures, and Nicki's just going off until my eyes get big, after which Drake softly scolds me into place so I can lick my wounds. And then Sia's there to wrap me in cotton. Or... something like that... >_>; Speaking of Rihanna and Nicki, my lover asked me,
"If you could make passionate love to one celebrity, who would it be?" I blushed, and finally said, "Well... It's a tie between Rihanna and Nicki Minaj..." We both blushed. ^_^;

Dreams:
Yeah~ I've been sleeping really weird, and having the oddest dreams. I even had a dream with Nicki Minaj and Freestyle Fellowship in it... And lots of rain before a premier. It's a long story. >_< If you don't ask you won't get unbelievable answers... I have to say though, the dream with them in it was WAY less weird than attending Marilyn Monroe's belated birthday party with my deceased grandpa. Yeah, like I said... No questions, no weird answers. Moving on~

Music & Dreamers:
It's always music time in my head. So, I thought I'd invite you to the mind of two people that are dear to me. One being my ultra talented cousin. I happen to run across his FB updates now and then. I'm always impressed when he  posts something he's recorded. He's always up to something, especially creative-wise. Simply put, I admire his work ethic and his style. You will too.
LINKAGE! :D

http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/dear-mom-remake-ft-youngin-boi
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/its-a-shame-remake-ft
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/actin-up-ft-young-reckless
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/what-u-know-about-me-ft-young
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/some-body-remix-ft-young
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/let-it-go-ft-young-reckless
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/missin-you-ft-young-reckless
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/i-get-it-ft-young-reckless
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/bad-girls-ft-young-reckless
http://soundcloud.com/deshaii-freshboi-ward/missin-you-ft-young-reckless

Another uber talented future super-star I'd like to mention? D-M@k!
He's another one that's always creating something. The link I'm about to give you is to his mix-tape (that I'm JUST now getting to finish listening to). You will not be disappointed. He is a wonderful lyricist... I really don't know what else to say about him, except that we went to high school together but never really got to talk much. ^_^;

" 'Further your education' they say. I tried to, I just got sick of paying to be lied to everyday..."

Too true... Too true.

LINKAGE!

http://www.datpiff.com/D-MK-The-Kingpin-Presents-Go-mixtape.352908.html

Making Stuff:
I still... Haven't been able to sew. Everything is elsewhere right now. It's driving me mad. I haven't even gotten to draw since I've been here. Fucking SUCKS. Sucks dry dog food. I know last year I spent most of my time A) Being sick, and B) Modeling on the rare occasion that I actually felt well enough to do so, but to be honest, I don't care if I can't model for another YEAR. I'd rather be back to my old self, making stuff and doing things.

I'm pretty sure that since feeling so much better this year I'll actually be able to do everything I've been wanting to and more, but if I've got to choose? I think art and poetry deserve a year since modeling got one almost all to itself. Sewing goes in the art category btw. ^_^;

However, I have actually been writing a bunch this summer. I've been working on some stories I began a while ago. One I started back in 2008 about vampires (sort of, haha), and another that I started just last April based 1st in India, and then it moves to the USA. I did a few touch-ups and what-not on some other things I began writing years ago, but I'm going to try to focus on the main 2 right now. Other than that, I've just been writing poetry and songs (as usual) and trying to figure out what I really want to put all~ of my efforts into. But... More on that later. ^_^;

Speaking of which? 

My Chinese horoscope for today says...

"Sometimes separating what you want from what makes sense can be hard. But that doesn't mean it's not worth the careful thought. Maybe you don't need to choose one side or another. It's possible there is room for shades of gray here."

Ciao, for now!

~* Yeaaah Bitches! :D *~

I finally got to weed out most of the old stuff from the old blogs (elsewhere). Finally. *wipes sweat from brow* Phew!
It was truly wonderful reading all of the old entries (despite how effin' long it took - 2 days to be more exact). I don't really know what else to say except that so~ much has happened in the last few years, that I've got to update everyone on the 'dramatics' (hardy-har-har-har). ^_^;

What have I been up to in the last couple of months? To say the least, I spent lots of time with a little one, he's 5: Teaching him to cook, skateboard, and how to write his name and spell other things. I've watched way too many old movies (it IS summer after all, haha), and I've still been writing poetry when I can, and eating until I fall asleep, and listening to Drake's "Take Care" album, Rihanna's "Talk that Talk" album, all of Sia's Albums (♥) and Corrinne Bailey Rae's 1st album.

After being so sick all last year (and the years before that, just unknowingly), and after having been in the ER so many times over the allergy, I can finally say: I feel so... So much better.

♥
Can't wait to move (again, again, again~ lol) so I can start sewing again...
Oh! And so I can give a bit more of an update. :P

Side note: Whoah! 3 and half thousand page views? When did that happen? (lol)

This Write Here... Could change your life.

Haha!
A while back I got the chance to work with the oh-so talented Isaac Klotz, and the wickedly-unwritten Freestyle Fellowship. This music video was the vivid, and eclectic result.

Not working? Too small? View it on Youtube. : )

The holey, cheetah-print pants adorned with chains were made by me the night prior to the shoot. Unfortunately they ripped on the set that night so I couldn't keep them. But, gah! You should have been there for THAT moment! ROFL I'm sure the director got an eye-full (sorry~ lol).

As it turns out, when I had my ex-seamstress finished hemming and seaming everything for me, she took the lazy route, and not only missed the seam mark by over half an inch, but also incorrectly seamed the crotch. Go figure. I'll do it myself from now on. :p No harm done though, I got the job done, and had fun doing it!

I had a great time working with everyone. A few people (not in the group) that I can't help but mention each time I speak of this would be: Trevasia Walls, for her energy and wit. It kept me going when the wind was cutting at my bare skin. The night was cold and cold weather can kill morale. Not with this girl around! ^_^ Two other fantastic people I met that night was: Orlando Collins. He was so friendly, polite, and funny. And also, a friend of his named Lehn Kessen - A fluent speaker of French (a language I've always wanted to learn).

I can't name everyone I met due to the limited time spent on the beach that night around the bonfire (the names of the pitbulls, or the guy who owned them - or for example, the name of the guy that reminded me of  Drake that I had the Gluten Free chat with, etc). But I'll never forget that night or the people involved.

Please, enjoy the video! I'll be back in due time with further updates. ^_^
Oh! And you know me. I can't mention someone without linking you up!

N37w0rk1ng FTW!
(For those of you who can't read '13375p34k' a.k.a. leetspeak/elite-speak/gamer-chat-lingo, that reads: Networking for the win! :D)

Lehn Kessen:
http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/lehn-kessen-music-ep/id463308310
Orlando Collins:
https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=163400735
Isaac Klotz:
 http://www.isaacklotz.com/
Freestyle Fellowship:
http://deconrecords.com/collaborators/freestyle-fellowship/
Trevasia Walls:
http://www.modelmayhem.com/1210506